this gal of mine is going nuts, crazy bananas over her new flashy pink boots which her Abah bought for her.
yesterday she followed her brother to school wearing you guess what - yup, her pinky boots. now she calls herself COWBOY GAL. pengsan, last night she asked of me "ibu, wafa nak pakai rope tu..yang leh pusing pusing atas horse tu. some more ibu leh jahit tak hat yang macam cowboy pakai tu, ibu tau buat tak hat tu?".
eyes rolled, i fainted again. aper nak jadik ni anak.

steady pom pi pi!

the gal with the pink boots n rustic knee Tuesday, July 31, 2007

what a week it has been. weekend was tiring but great! my abode was filled with wonderful guests - my sis's buddies from sepang, kl. there were altogether 11 of them including sis and family. they came on late saturday afternoon. her royal highness had it all figured out. main menu of the day was ITALIANO, simple yet satisfying - creamy chicken with mushrooms, pasta bolognaise with meatballs, chilled potato salad, garlic bread and to top it off was freshly baked chocolatey fudgey brownies for dessert and watermelons to cool it all off. now if that's not power, i don't know what else is.

then hubby and i took them out on exploration S'pore! we went public that day. took 190 to scotts road. then took the train to geylang and the train again to lavender. closing finale of the evening was BONE STEAK at beach road lah..aper lagik. at last semua tersadai kat depan golden mile complex having waited for cabs which never came. finally hubby decided to call for cabs rather than waiting for the cabs to come. what time did we end it all? it was close to midnite.

@ orchard subway...lambatnyer nak sampai train ni

penantian suatu penyeksaan
dig in!

cian my sis....she was limping but semangat merayap tu tetap ada. you rawk lah sis, cayalah!

breakfast menu was prepared by who else but mak esah and bibik. so theme was back to basics - kampong fried rice, fried sukun dipped with mak esah's home made sambal cuka plus ain's fabu-tastic chix n cheese popiah. power to the max babe...

before the parting

with the men

Labels: love family

Monday, July 30, 2007

According to Hadith, the month of the Prophet. 15th is Nifsu Sya'ban. 7th is *Laylatul-Raghaib*. Superogatory fasting and prayers.

*The 7th of Rajab (on the 6th night) and a holy day for Muslims which commemorates a highly blessed occasion, reported as the night in which the blessed essence of Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. was transferred from his father to this mother; she afterwards experienced many miracles.

wa min Allah at-tawfiq
And Allah knows best Monday, July 30, 2007

meanwhile...after the spa session i hopped into wardah's bookstore along bussorah street where i treated myself yet again to these.

spa ~ food for my body
knowledge ~ spiritual food for my soul Friday, July 27, 2007

i love friday
havE a grEat wEEKEnd fOlkS! Friday, July 27, 2007

i mean the spa thing. can i do that again and charge it to the husband? for all the agony he put me through, it's only fair he pays partly, if not in full part of the ransom eh.

my solitary moment at the spa was simply, peaceful. though i was pretty strung up over the disposable g-string, other than that it was simply smooth sailing or should i call it smooth snoring. i opted for the Puteri Sandat package - the signatory Balinese massage to unwind those hard knots and then indulge in the Javanese lulur scrub to exfoliate the skin for clearer complexion. thereafter, using freshly made yoghurt, the body will be wrapped with this luxurious moisturiser. i was then pampered with a short scalp treatment for lushes hair growth.

the verdict : jasmine, the masseuse who served me did a good job unwinding those hard stubborn knots especially those area around my thighs, back and neck . her finger pressure was just right for me. i heard a few crack sounds from my back and it never felt this good before. i don't see my skin any clearer than before but it is definitely more softer and supple to the touch. the scalp treatment uses a cream so heavenly scented it stirred up the woman in me....growwwl...SUKER TAO!!

now it's my turn, it's payback time. my dear husband, bite your tongue and eat your heart out. i am gonna make you drool, salivate and thirst, even a carton of jia-jia liang teh won't quench your thirst...for me. ah hak!

c'mon baby...sing this tune for me, make me feel gOOd :-


baby, though your tune will never ever come any closer to Bryan Adams, not even Ahmad Jais, i love you still. Thursday, July 26, 2007

comes 3pm today i will bid goodbye to my cluttered work desk and whisk myself away to Wayan Retreat Balinese Spa
after my last entry, i decided to dial the spa's no. and made an appointment for myself. i think i deserve it. afterall it is my money i am splurging, not his. i have no idea which spa ritual i am pampering myself with but definitely something with a super long massage. yes, a good massage where i can fall asleep and snore myself silly along the way. perhaps, i can throw in a body scrub and a head, neck massage plus a moisturising cream bath while i am at it. oh what the heck, why not.

am i being impulsive here? i think i am but i've been looking forward to this for a very long time. he is aware of this too. just too bad that this indulgence only materialise after a beautiful picture has been tainted. he doesn't know my plan today. he doesn't need to. am i a sinned wife? i just need my time alone. i am not rebelling against him. i am not heading into marriage warfare, for Allah's sake. this is entirely a spur of the moment thing. a rebel wife? never in my sane mind.

i think i am one very confused woman now. but right now, i am just looking forward to a relaxing afternoon. i hear a song, in my head....
jangan ditanya kemana aku pergi
jangan ditanya mengapa aku pergi

very emo isn't it?

damn my storekeeper, he likes to sing this song. and now it keeps playing in my head. Shucks!! Thursday, July 26, 2007

I
NEED
TO UNWIND
I
FEEL
LIKE
GOING FOR A GOOD MASSAGE

Boss, can i leave office early today?? I want to PAMPER my fatigue body, bruised mind. Thursday, July 26, 2007

i am depressed. you know the situation when you are caught off guard especially when you are in state of happiness? that's it. i awoke this morning with a throbbing headache. a reminder of last night. he was a wicked man last night. i wish i am a witch, i can broom him off.
i hate it when he made me choose my children or him. heir was down with raging fever and i just found out this morning my neighbour's son who attends the same school as heir is also down with high fever. must be a vicious viral attack going on at school.

okay, i've sidetracked a bit. the thing is you screwed up last night. i was in high spirits albeit the slight headache i've been having since last evening. i might appear nonchalant and unaffected by what took place in the car but i admit, i broke down inside. don't know whether you saw it. it hurts like thousand needles pricking into my skin. you could have just pull the trigger and shoot me. it doesn't matter. but heiress never failed to cheer me up, she is my cocaine when i needed a fix.

maybe i'm sensitive. i am sensitive though many do not realise that. Librans are supposed to be one tough cookie eh, an aunt agony for others.
if more than 8 years ago, i would leave your cheeks red, your ego crushed and walked away. but this time i know my standing. i have learnt, wisen up in case you have not noticed.

i am one with many faults. i hate it when i can't change those faults.
i hate it when i love you more. Thursday, July 26, 2007

Amal ibadat sunat yang paling utama dan amat besar ganjaran pahalanya ialah berpuasa sunat - paling baik jika dapat dikerjakan 30 hari iaitu sepanjang bulan Rejab, sebagaimana yang diamalkan oleh Rasulullah saw.

Menurut maksud sebuah hadis Rasulullah saw, sesiapa yang berpuasa sebulan pada bulan Rejab, maka Allah swt menyeru kepadanya "Telah wajib hakmu atas-Ku, mintalah olehmu kepada-Ku. Demi ketinggian dan kebesaran-Ku di bawah 'Arasy-Ku. Engkau kekasih-Ku daripada semua makhluk-Ku. Engkau muli disisi-Ku. Berbahagialah kamu, tiada hijab diantara Aku dan engkau.' Fadhilat selanjutnya (menurut beberapa Hadis Rasulullah saw) adalah berikut :

• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 20 hari, diampunkan dosa-dosanya yang lalu
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 19 hari, dibinakan sebuah mahligai di syurga
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 16 hari, akan dapat melihat Allah di dalam syurga
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 15 hari, diberi pahala seperti berpuasa seratus ribu tahun (menurut Sayidina Ali).
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 14 hari, diberi pahal seperti berpuasa sepuluh ribu tahun (menurut Sayidina Ali)
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 13 hari, diberi pahala seperti berpuasa tiga ribu tahun (menurut Sayidina Ali)
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 10 hari, akan diberi dua sayap (kepak) untuk terbang seperti kilat di atas titian Siratal Mustaqim pada Hari Kiamat
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 9 hari, akan dapat mengucap ketika keluar dari kubur dan tidak ditolak masuk ke syurga
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 8 hari, akan dibukakan lapan pintu syurga pada Hari Kiamat
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 7 hari, akan ditutupkan tujuh pintu neraka pada Hari Kiamat
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 6 hari, akan dikeluarkan dari kubur pada Hari Kiamat dengan muka yang bercahaya
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 5 hari, akan diamankan daripada azab kubur
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 4 hari, akan menjauhi bala bencana dan penyakit yang berat serta fitnah dajjal pada Hari Kiamat
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 3 hari, akan dibinakan benteng yang menghalang ke neraka pada Hari Kiamat
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab 2 hari, akan dipergandakan pahala ibadatnya
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab sehari, diberi pahala seperti berpuasa 40 tahun dan diberi minum air syurga dan diberi pahala serprti mengerjakan ibadat seumur hidupnya.
• Berpuasa sunat Rejab sehari pada 27 Rejab (hari Israk dan Mi'raj) diberi pahala seperti puasa enam puluh bulan. Jika disertai dengan ibadat bersedekah, diberi pahala seperti berpuasa seribu tahun
• Pada keseluruhannya, mereka yang berpuasa pada bulan Rejab, akan diampukan dosa-dosanya yang lalu, dipeliharakan Allah imannya bagi baki usianya dan terlepas dari dahaga pada Hari Kiamat.

Monday, July 23, 2007

albeit the wet weather, saturday was a cool and relax day spent with my siblings at costa sands resort. it was my sis-in-law's birthday. well actually her birthday was on 20th july. that's why she was griping why the cake i got for her didn't mark the memorable date 2007-2007! Sorry sis, slipped off my mind to do that. but the cake was simply yum yummy delicious. also so sorry little iqmal for your name was not on the strawberry cake. i tot since your ibu had herself a little bike accident, i figured you guys wouldn't make it to the party. sorry sorry sorry. but you did have a whale of time in the pool with heir and heires didn't you. in fact, i think you've taken fun to another level when heiress complained to me "iqmal naughty, he put my head down in the water, he liked to disturb me!"

the get together was great until it was marred by not too pleasant incident which i will not reveal here. not my business anyway, enough said.

anyway, here are some pics taken at Costa Sands

Labels: love family

Monday, July 23, 2007

Permulaan jalan hidayah itu ialah "taqwa yang zahir" dan "Nihayatul Hidayah" (kesudahan jalan hidayah) itu ialah "taqwa yang batin" dan syurga itu tidak akan dicapai kecuali dengan taqwa. Dan tidak ada petunjuk kecuali bagi orang yang menyediakan dirinya untuk bertaqwa. Dan taqwa itu terbahagi kepada dua :

Pertama : Menjunjung segala perintah Allah Taala
Kedua : Menjauhi segala larangan Allah Taala (meninggalkan
kemaksiatan)

seandainya engkau berniat dengan mencari ilmu ini untuk berlumba-lumba dan mendapatkan kemegahan dan terkemuka di kalangan kawan-kawan dan untuk menarik perhatian orang ramai terhadap dirimu dan menghimpunkan akan kekayaan dunia, maka sebenarnya engkau telah berusaha menghancurkan agamamu dan membinasakan dirimu sendiri dan menjual akhiratmu untuk mendapatkan harta dunia.
Maka penjualanmu adalah rugi dan perniagaanmu porak peranda dan guru yang mengajarmu adalah dikira menolongmu dalam membuat maksiat dan ia juga akan merasakan kerugian. Ketika ini guru yang mengajarmu itu laksana seorang yang menjual pedang kepada perompak seperti sabda Rasulullah saw :

"Siapa yang menolong orang lain melakukan sesuatu maksiat walaupun hanya dengan setengah kalimat maka orang itu dikira berkongsi di dalam melakukan maksiat tersebut"
Saturday, July 21, 2007

Our intercessor, the beloved Prophet Muhammad pbuh described the likeness of each of his loyal companions :

"Abu Bakar resembles my ancestor Ibrahim Khalilullah in that he is softer even than oil"

"Umar resembles the great prophet Nuh, Najiullah, the Intimate Friend of the Lord. He is harder even than stone." Friday, July 20, 2007

Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah swt

As I set on a conquest in search to be a better Muslimah insyaallah, this opportunity comes knocking on my soul. Umpama orang ngantuk di hulurkan bantal.

Thank you Sis Muna for this opportunity. May Allah showers upon you all HIS rewards for I am only an ignorant being who can only afford gift of prayers for you

Thank you Mamadewi for opening your abode to be shared with the rest of God's lowly servants like myself. With all humbleness and humility, I thank you. Allah knows best the rewards awaiting for you

Allah says, "The believers, men and women, are Auliya (helpers, supporters, friends, protectors) of one another, they enjoin (on people) Al-Ma'ruf (i.e. Islamic Monotheism and all that Islam orders one to do), and forbids (people) from Al-Munkar (i.e. polytheism and disbelief of all kinds, and all that Islam has forbidden); they offer their prayers perfectly (Iqamat-as-Salat); and give the Zakat and obey Allah and His Messenger. Allah will have His mercy upon them. Surely, Allah is All-Mighty, All-Wise." (At-Tauba 9:71)

May tomorrow make me a better person Friday, July 20, 2007

nice number aye? today it coincides with my sis-in-law and nephew's birthday.

To Kak Ina, happy 35th birthday!
To Iqmal, happy 7th birthday!

I pray for your happiness both
May you be blessed with all the good tidings from HIM
May Allah bless you with high level of virtue, inner faith and conscience
Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin

Labels: love family

Friday, July 20, 2007

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

last Saturday was a blast. First stop I attended Idasie's solemnisation ceremony at Tampines and for the 1st time in my life witnessed it performed at the void deck. the bride and groom looked ravishingly gorgeous, befitting the description of Raja dan Permaisuri sehari. and of course with my lovelies Kyn and Sri, life couldn't be better could it?


next stop - birthday celebration for the July babies. happy birthday and good tidings to Wari, Zara, Sabrina, Aiman and Zarfan. food! glorious food! burrpp....alhamdulillah.

for bday pics click here. meanwhile, here are some pics i snapped at the party.

Hubby with bro Jamal

Nur with her magic helmet
life imitating art

Labels: love family

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Friday, July 13, 2007

Friday, July 13, 2007

Friday, July 13, 2007

Monday and Tuesday were great days. I got to meet my long-time-no-see fren - Gramm. We have not seen each other for close to 2 years now. Funny isn't it, the land we live in is not that big - only 347km2 in fact. But yet, meet-ups are rare for us for many many reasons. Which explains why meet up on Monday did not suffice so we had to meet up again on Tuesday and we were lucky we have my husband to do the chaperone ;)) And i am glad we settled all issues pertaining to our friendship. I believe his is all God's will. And it is God's will too that i completely forgotten to snap pictures of us. Chisss....

So today i've settled one-third of my work (due to major hiccup on the blardy office server for the past 2 days. i was practically incapacitated for 2 days!) and soon will be on my way to meet a new friend. A new friend whom i've met during my trip to the Holy Ground last April.
Farinda is her name. Hailing 400km from across the causeway, she is one steel lady who at 4months pregnant managed to conquer all odds and climbed up 2500ft to Gua Hira. Always striding on a positive light, she is easy to be with.

Looking forward to seeing her today at her abode. This time, i won't forget the pictures of us. Insyaallah (if God wills it).

Salam. Thursday, July 12, 2007

i'm referring to my blogskin. it's crying for help...tolong tolong..
seriously people, i don't know for how long more i need to keep this jaded skin of mine. gosh, if there's an award for the most boring blog skin i think i am deserving of the award, really. i've tried but truthfully i sucked at it, big time. ada jer yang tak kener. i long for a blogskin which potrays my true personality, like when i open up my own blog i see nothing but me all over. overwhelming i know but i so likeeeee it!!!

albeit that, don't go judging the blogger by her skin aite (amacam, peribahasa baru).

enough said. so how about a free lunch or dinner and maybe movie tickets thrown in for any takers who are willing to lend a helping hand here.

tolong kami bantu kami anak anak yatim piatu *sob* *sob* Tuesday, July 10, 2007

lovemeloveyoulovemeloveyoulovemeloveyoulovemeloveyou
lovemeloveyoulovemeloveyoulovemeloveyoulovemeloveyou
loveyouhateyouloveyouhateyouloveyouhateyouloveyouhateyou
loveyouhateyouloveyouhateyouloveyouhateyouloveyouhateyou
loveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyou
loveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyou
what kind of relationship is this? this is what i feel towards the husband
yes, his royal higheness that is
one moment i was doing total damage to my vocal chord but the next moment i was chewing off his perky bum bum
reason for tiff: he interrupted my time with Hikmah

one moment we were exchanging glares, disgusted at the mere presence of either one
and the very next moment he was feeding me rice with ikan bilis kicap
reason for tiff : for the umpteenth time darling, click on file, print and select canon mp160 printer to print lah!! Susah sangat ker?!

one moment we were huffing and puffing, ready to maul and devour and see who emerge winner. next moment i was seeking forgiveness right after solat jama'ah
but WHY WHY WHY he just, just, just, needed to put me in a fix.

wife : yang, i banyak dosa kat you eh. i am very sorry i yelled at you (15 words)
him : lifted up his right leg with that damn huge un-pedicured toe of his sticking out like sore weed
"nah cium jari kaki i ni, jilat sekalik! tau pun banyak dosa...padan muka u, tau pun takut tak masuk syurga ah banyak dosa ngan suami!" (26 words)

Note who used the most words. And dare they say women are Mak Nenek...ever heard Pak Nenek? meet my husband. Monday, July 09, 2007

how do we heal a broken heart. Heart of sorrow
how do we heal a bitter heart. Heart of angst
how do we feel our hearts. Is there still room for forgiveness
Is there still room for amendments

Di tebing kerinduan ku
memandang hampa pada dunia
ku hanya orang biasa
tak lepas dari rasa kecewa

hanya padamu
tempatku mengadu
pahit yang kini menimpaku
aku percaya
tiada yang sia sia
semuakan ada hikmahnya

fren, may Allah bestows upon you His Nur
may you find the answers you have been searching for Monday, July 09, 2007

Labels: heirheiress, love family

Friday, July 06, 2007

okay, this is some sort outdated. last friday nite the husband and i were at the cinema to watch Transformers. it was awesome! i admit, i am no big fan of sci-fi action movies except for Fifth Element. but Transformers is good enough to win my vote for best movie of the year, after Apocalypto.
i was awed by the actions and the autobots transformations for the wholesome 2 hours. great directions by Michael Bay and with Steven Spielberg's magical production nothing can go wrong in the movie except when Megan Fox provocatively flashed her to-die-for body in front of Bumble Bee. if i were bumble bee, i would have immediately transformed myself from that piece of orange junk and 'toot-toot' the babe (sorry ah, this is a family-friendly blog, so let's not smear it with profanities..hehe). those who have watched the movie will perfectly understand what i'm saying. fuyyoh, no surprise if dear hubby perspired and gawked. hey i did too.

so albeit all that we decided that the movie is still cool for the kids to watch. then 2 days later on sunday we watched Transformers again with the kiddies in tow and guess what. my little heiress slept 45minutes into the movie. we figured perhaps Transformers wasn't her cup of tea afterall. maybe strawberry shortcake, care bears are her forte. the heir enjoyed it though, maybe starstruck by Megan Fox...men!!!

point is, go watch the movie. i can only vaguely remember the cartoon series back in the 80's and not a fan of Transformers back then.
but now, i am a fully pledged anti-Decepticon and Megatron is my Nemesis. Optomus Prime is my new profound cartoon hero. Bumble Bee is my fantasy ride. Megan Fox is my alter-ego. Shoots. Wednesday, July 04, 2007

no i'm not expecting though i wish am
still i am on cloud nine
this sunday i will be seeing the lady i have been longing to see
this remarkable lady who made me see the reel life and the real hereafter when nobody can convince me enough
this astounding lady who wreak good havoc in my life
and i said havoc for a good reason
she has stirred a new profound meaning in my life
can i say she completes me? that will be too understated and over the top i think
for i still have my mother's endless prayers for the wellbeing of her havoc daughter
prayers from my loved ones must have brought a change in me
still it is this lady who managed to make a 30yr old think and think deeper without being antagonistic
a good 5 months have passed without seeing her every sundays
this time, da lady is back, with a vengeance
a vengeance to the unbelievers
to eradicate and terminate my mind already full of filth

i call it my weekly cleansing ritual

Life is great, with or without a new offspring

Thank you My Lord.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007

i have it all going
but why doesn't IT come?
sigh.

for what it's worth, i will wait
waiting is an endless game
bring it on i say
play the joke
may the joke be on me
i don't care
i will wait Tuesday, July 03, 2007