i am not afraid to stand alone~~if Allah is by my side

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

what's up without the downs

in a blink of an eye, i have bid 1429h goodbye

and as another new year beckons, i can't help but to recall the past year happenings

looking back to 1429h, i should say it had been a good one

oh wat am i saying, year after year after year had been a good one for me

maybe i am the most contented human on earth

but then still, i am HUMAN

of course there are also events which i prayed hard would go away and just disappear

but i rather not harp over it

what's life without tribulations?

what's ups without the downs?

i worry much when tribulations do not come my way

that's not to say that i am looking for trouble or i love creating trouble (trouble-maker ker aku ni?)

this is not the case of "takder kejer cari kejer" kind of motion

but someone dear once said to me,

"be grateful that you are faced with tribulations for that means your name is still in His book,

realize that when He still bothers to be bothered with you only goes to show that He Loves You...

*yippie! He loves me and nothing else matters*

otherwise, aren't you in big trouble sista!"

for starters,

i didn't manage to get a little sibling for izz afiq and izz wafa

i have a name for the little one, a simple, short and sweet but a meaningful name but no face to match the name with

still, i love 1429h

it's okay, we are grateful for our 2precious.

we will make supplications everyday and 'work' harder on it

furthermore, not every planted seed will yield results

but once it manages to, its fruit of labour will be so so magnificiently sweet...

in between,

there's his career switch which meant a budget switch for the family

started off a bit rough for us but gratefully, Alhamdulillah

He helped us through

i never once doubted his capability and resilience in the face of hardship

for that, i am forever grateful for all the sacrifices

if anything was to come out from all of this,

it had done wonders to our marriage

sparks flew, colourful rainbows emerged from one end to another end of the horizon

to put it in the most simplest definition of all,

it has to be wow!

but then,

abg ngah's health condition took a slight turn for the worse in 1429h

though he is putting a brave front, his little sister can tell

slowly i see his condition deterioriate

he 'redha' with his share of tribulations and taking it in his stride

he is stronger than he thinks he is

so what's mine compare to his?

that makes me think, am i really in His book afterall?

for closure,

i could never ask for a better 1429h

and i do not dare to ask for a more promising 1430h

i just hope that i will be given strength and perseverance to ride through 1430h

may i get back on my feet fast if i stumble

may i be knocked back to my senses as soon as i lose it

may i have the love from my 2 precious, husband, family and friends

most importantly may i have His love to last me in my lifetime and hereafter

.insyaAllah.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Monday, December 29, 2008

back from bangkok, home sweet home
nothing beats the smell of home
alhamdulillah.......

Monday, December 29, 2008

Selamat Tahun Baru 1430H

Salam Zikral Hijrah kepada semua
Alhamdulillah, it is with God's grace that we are able to greet another blessed new year

Let's take this opportunity to remind ourselves the history and sacrifices our beloved Prophet Muhammad Rasulullah saw had to go through making the Hijrah from Mecca to Madinah.

Selawat dan salam ke atas Junjungan kita, Nabi Muhammad saw.

it will be a tough year my friends, but InsyaAllah we will brave through this. i know we can.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Thursday, December 18, 2008

and she quotes, word for word

"I miss u so much,tdy i

alrdy looking fwd to see.my heartbreak u

know tapi ade lain org

lagi butuhkan ,i cuma

telan air liur je."

*cue from bujang lapok.....ish ish ish.......ka.si.han.

hai lah mambang, aper nak buat mambang...nasib badan!!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Friday, December 05, 2008

complicated no more

about the upcoming bangkok trip lah, what else.

now that suvarnabhumi airport has been cleared of unrest, looks like our bangkok trip is still on as planned. there'll be 9 of us - all women. baiyoke sky will be the place we call home from 26 to 28th December.

i appreciate the concern and worries from hub, family members and frends. i feel lurrvved, important....heh. throughout the bangkok saga, i was kinda using the wait-and-see approach. to me, it's a simple equation : flight cancelled = refund / flight no cancelled = hello bangkok!

really, my mind is at ease for i know i am travelling with all those good ladies whom i know live and die for Allah, and i mean seriously live and die for Allah. kak eton, kak zana...i love you both.

i know i am in safe hands. as to what other circumstances may be,

Death is a certainty, Living is God's will.

but don't worry my dearies, i'll keep myself safe. i promise. just keep me in your do'as please.

i'll keep myself safe while walking, keep myself safe while eating, keep myself safe while shopping, keep myself safe while shopping, keep myself safe while shopping.

u see? i am keeping myself safe right.......

Friday, December 05, 2008

baby it's all good. . . .

his birthday,

a weekend getaway with precious, our gems and my sistas

i am THAT lucky indeed.

javanese tiger is 34 today. O Allah, please love him as much as You love me, unconditionally.

he is everything i need. through him, i hope to see You.

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Friday, December 05, 2008