what's up without the downs

in a blink of an eye, i have bid 1429h goodbye

and as another new year beckons, i can't help but to recall the past year happenings

looking back to 1429h, i should say it had been a good one

oh wat am i saying, year after year after year had been a good one for me

maybe i am the most contented human on earth

but then still, i am HUMAN

of course there are also events which i prayed hard would go away and just disappear

but i rather not harp over it

what's life without tribulations?

what's ups without the downs?

i worry much when tribulations do not come my way

that's not to say that i am looking for trouble or i love creating trouble (trouble-maker ker aku ni?)

this is not the case of "takder kejer cari kejer" kind of motion

but someone dear once said to me,

for starters,

i didn't manage to get a little sibling for izz afiq and izz wafa

i have a name for the little one, a simple, short and sweet but a meaningful name but no face to match the name with

still, i love 1429h

it's okay, we are grateful for our 2precious.

we will make supplications everyday and 'work' harder on it

furthermore, not every planted seed will yield results

but once it manages to, its fruit of labour will be so so magnificiently sweet...

in between,

there's his career switch which meant a budget switch for the family

started off a bit rough for us but gratefully, Alhamdulillah

He helped us through

i never once doubted his capability and resilience in the face of hardship

for that, i am forever grateful for all the sacrifices

if anything was to come out from all of this,

it had done wonders to our marriage

sparks flew, colourful rainbows emerged from one end to another end of the horizon

to put it in the most simplest definition of all,

it has to be wow!

but then,

abg ngah's health condition took a slight turn for the worse in 1429h

though he is putting a brave front, his little sister can tell

slowly i see his condition deterioriate

he 'redha' with his share of tribulations and taking it in his stride

he is stronger than he thinks he is

so what's mine compare to his?

that makes me think, am i really in His book afterall?

for closure,

i could never ask for a better 1429h

and i do not dare to ask for a more promising 1430h

i just hope that i will be given strength and perseverance to ride through 1430h

may i get back on my feet fast if i stumble

may i be knocked back to my senses as soon as i lose it

may i have the love from my 2 precious, husband, family and friends

most importantly may i have His love to last me in my lifetime and hereafter

.insyaAllah.