last night's halaqah have indeed drove home very questionable quuestions i have about myself

about me as a friend

not you as my friend

what kind of friend have i been

not what kind of friend have you been to me

at certain stage of my life, i admit i have been a friend who destroys,

a bad influence

destructive

those were the days of being young, jahil and da'if

astaghfirullahhal'adzim

1)do i care for my friends who care for me

2)am i worth to be a friend

3)when my friend is in dire straits, do i share her burden and troubles?

4)do i reciprocate kindness to my friend whom have helped me when i

am at my worst?

5)do i lead my friends astray

1)someone whom is like our staple diet. somebody dear, worthy and

close and who can guide you to HIS path together, hand in hand and

help you when you fall

2)someone who is like a dose of medicine whom you prescribed only

when you are ill. you only need this friend at certain times, not always.

3)someone who is a disease and has to be avoided. she brings nothing

good and will not lead you to Allah's path. stay away.

but if by God's will you meet someone of the 3rd category, you will

learn a thing or two from this someone and if you are able to get

around it unscathed and stronger, you have learnt life's most

important lesson in friendship

now i can't stop to wonder, what kind of a friend am i?

change must start from me, me, me, myself, myself, myself

in order for a friend to appreciate me, i have to learn to appreciate others

in order for a friend to find me worthy to be their friend, i have to be worthy to others