i am not afraid to stand alone~~if Allah is by my side

Monday, November 12, 2007

WAKE UP CALL

on saturday while we were about to watch the BeeMovie with heir and heiress, her royal highness received a text message from her biras.

this biras of mine teaches at madrasah masjid al-iman - the place where heir and heiress are studying. heir is in madrasah 1 this year - equivalent to secular primary 1.

so she texted me and asked me in the most polite manner if heir studied for his madrasah examination which was over and done with on 27h October.

i reckon if she asked me that question, it meant heir did not fare well in his madrasah examination.

biras - nak tanya sikit, afiq ada belajar tak utk peperiksaan akhir tahun ini (madrasah)?

hrh - tak fokus sangat. kenaper

biras - tanya aja...sebab nampak perubahan dalam pelajarannya

hrh - menurun ek? dia very nervous time exam ujung tahun ni

biras - banyak turun....berbeza sekali!

hrh - hhm. salah kiter jugak kerana tak beri fokus lebih due to hari raya-ing and all. semua subjek fail ker? Insyaallah akan diberi fokus lebih tahun depan

biras - tak ada pun cakap fail...cuma perubahan aje...utk akhir tahun aja yang nampak perbezaannya..sebelum ini alhamdulillah

hrh - thanks for the reminder. insyaallah next year afiq will improve. tak pun leh crash course ngan makciknyer kan...heh.

astaghfirullah. this is really a wake up call. if i could turn back time, i would not hold the open house, i would not do any visiting and i would devote more time on his ukhrawi subjects. i was actually afraid that with all the pressure and stress heir had been facing for his secular exams, i did not want to add on to his stress and anxiety.

but yet, i feel like i should have been more focused with my only son.

but what's done is done. lesson learnt and time to move on.

i am upset not because he didn't score.

i am upset not because he didn't meet my expectations.

i am upset not because he does not make to the top 5 in class.

i am upset with MYSELF for not doing enough

i am upset with MYSELF for taking the slack

lesson learnt. take heed. move on.

so happen today was heir's parent-teacher meeting at his primary school and collection of report book as well.

alhamdulillah heir did well for his exam. band 2 for english and 2 band 1s' for mother tongue and mathematics respectively. certainly there is always room for improvement and he can put in more effort next year. insyaallah.

happy liao.

Monday, November 12, 2007