i am depressed. you know the situation when you are caught off guard especially when you are in state of happiness? that's it. i awoke this morning with a throbbing headache. a reminder of last night. he was a wicked man last night. i wish i am a witch, i can broom him off.
i hate it when he made me choose my children or him. heir was down with raging fever and i just found out this morning my neighbour's son who attends the same school as heir is also down with high fever. must be a vicious viral attack going on at school.

okay, i've sidetracked a bit. the thing is you screwed up last night. i was in high spirits albeit the slight headache i've been having since last evening. i might appear nonchalant and unaffected by what took place in the car but i admit, i broke down inside. don't know whether you saw it. it hurts like thousand needles pricking into my skin. you could have just pull the trigger and shoot me. it doesn't matter. but heiress never failed to cheer me up, she is my cocaine when i needed a fix.

maybe i'm sensitive. i am sensitive though many do not realise that. Librans are supposed to be one tough cookie eh, an aunt agony for others.
if more than 8 years ago, i would leave your cheeks red, your ego crushed and walked away. but this time i know my standing. i have learnt, wisen up in case you have not noticed.

i am one with many faults. i hate it when i can't change those faults.
i hate it when i love you more. Thursday, July 26, 2007