i am not afraid to stand alone~~if Allah is by my side

Thursday, July 26, 2007

comes 3pm today i will bid goodbye to my cluttered work desk and whisk myself away to Wayan Retreat Balinese Spa
after my last entry, i decided to dial the spa's no. and made an appointment for myself. i think i deserve it. afterall it is my money i am splurging, not his. i have no idea which spa ritual i am pampering myself with but definitely something with a super long massage. yes, a good massage where i can fall asleep and snore myself silly along the way. perhaps, i can throw in a body scrub and a head, neck massage plus a moisturising cream bath while i am at it. oh what the heck, why not.

am i being impulsive here? i think i am but i've been looking forward to this for a very long time. he is aware of this too. just too bad that this indulgence only materialise after a beautiful picture has been tainted. he doesn't know my plan today. he doesn't need to. am i a sinned wife? i just need my time alone. i am not rebelling against him. i am not heading into marriage warfare, for Allah's sake. this is entirely a spur of the moment thing. a rebel wife? never in my sane mind.

i think i am one very confused woman now. but right now, i am just looking forward to a relaxing afternoon. i hear a song, in my head....
jangan ditanya kemana aku pergi
jangan ditanya mengapa aku pergi

very emo isn't it?

damn my storekeeper, he likes to sing this song. and now it keeps playing in my head. Shucks!!

Thursday, July 26, 2007