I have to apologise. Till now I have yet to complete downloading all the umrah photos. Eversince I came back on 23rd April, I went through an emotional turmoil. Bogged with swollen gums didn't help in anyway at all.
Cried and dragged my feet to work on Thursday. Poor hubby had to endure my baby-ish and cranky attitude all day. This always happens to me everytime I am away from work for a long time. Does this happen to you guys too??
As expected, tonnes of unfinished business waited for me on my work desk. Fed up, big time. On top of my own work, I have to correct the work of others who apparently blundered big time when I was away. Another bombshell, my BIG BOSS from downunder decided to come over and call our Yacht office HIS office for the next 2 months. Urggghghghghg!!!! Now, that will lead to something else, a drastic change will happen to my office, I can feel it but let's not go there today. When the time comes I'll know and you'll know.

I really do not feel like working. But hubby brought me back to humble earth. He laid upon me all the things or rather commitments which are still hanging on our shoulders and why I cannot declare myself a homemaker for now.

Thinking back, work is tough. But being a full-time mom without a real concrete plan for the future is very scary too. I want my kids to have the best education and exposure. For that, I have to carry on being an employee. I hate that word but I don't have much of a choice do I? I am at crossroads. One part of me yearn to be with my children and be a dutiful wife at home. Another part of me doesn't want to part with the work challenge and good pay. Just barely 2 months ago I brought back a huge bonus payout, more than 8K! Now, who's going to give me that kind of cash if I am a homemaker.

Don't get me wrong, I am no money-grubber, but having that kind of cash really helps our family a lot. Most importantly, with that halal money I managed to bring me to Umrah and I am proud and grateful to Allah s.w.t. for giving me HIS blessings. I am grateful to my dearest hubby for if not for his permission, I will not be able to perform my Umrah with Mak, Abg Ngah, Kak Su and Mak Mah.

Thank you sayang. Thank you for your trust, you are a kind-hearted soul indeed.

It's 1st of May today and today is a holiday. Things seems to be picking up. Had dinner with our Aussie BIG BOSS and his spouse last night at Downtown East. But work never ends. I must be very very out of my mind for today I brought me and my kids to my office to settle some work. Was there for like 2 hours and would hav stayed longer than that if not for the heir's dire need to go to to the loo and they were both famished.

I will be away for another week, gotta get my wisdom tooth extracted.
Happy, syiok you might think. After all I'll be away from work for 1 freaking week aye. Here comes every minute incoming call from office going "G, I'm sorry to disturb you but I need your help...blah blah blah". Fed up betul tao!

On a brighter note, this might be a bit belated but I would like to congratulate my lovely cousin Yati for her impending pregnancy. She's into her 9 weeks now. Raiyan will be a big brother already, no puting puting okay. Tuesday, May 01, 2007