i am not afraid to stand alone~~if Allah is by my side

Friday, March 23, 2007

It's 8.30 in the evening. The rain has ceased to light showers now.
But I am confident she is still raining tears since I last left her in the car.
We came back to HQ after half a day trip to Bollywood Farm, organised by our company in conjunction with Safety Day.
She complained of bleeding while at the farm. I started to worry.
Worry for her.
Could she be 2nd time unlucky? I kept that question to myself.
In my heart, I really wish it was just a false alarm.
Things took turn for the worse. She was in pain, real agony.
I could see she could hardly hold her gravity, the time when she alighted from the bus.
Pale as a white sheet was what I described her at that time.
I held her cold, clammy hand as we crossed the road.
She was engulfed by uncertainty and fear.
She broke down and cried on my shoulder.
I let her be.
No exchange of words, I just let her cry her heart out.
We then sat in her car. Under no circumstances would she be able to take control of the wheels.
I drove her back to Buangkok, straight into her husband's arms and then I left.

I recalled earlier while we were on our way to HQ.
We joked and laughed about how easy it was for her to conceive while I griped about how difficult it is for me now to even get hooked. And not long after, this have to happen.
I guess this is life. This is God's way of reminding us that what HE gives, we have no right whatsoever to call it our own.
HE can easily takes it away from us as easily as HE gives.
I should be grateful with what I have. I should not ask for more, should I?

Masyaallah. I just came to know from my mother-in-law just now that my 'biras' had a miscarriage 3 months into her pregnancy. And 2nd time unlucky too.
Too much of a coincidence in one day!

Ya Allah, please protect these unfortunate women, give them strength, patience.
Please, please do not bestow upon them challenges for which they cannot endure.
I plea to YOU YA ALLAH,
make us strong like Sayyidatul Khadijah,
make us sanguine like Sayyidatul Aishah,
make us women of endurance....
WOMEN WHO MAKE YOU PROUD

.Amin.

Friday, March 23, 2007