i am not afraid to stand alone~~if Allah is by my side

Monday, December 18, 2006

It was a very wet Sunday yesterday. After the final fardhu 'ain class, Mak and I headed back home. Class will resume possibly next year Feb, insyaallah. When we got home, as she normally does, the lil gal will hide under the shoe cabinet...to give her Ibu a surprise. As we hugged and blew kisses, I realised how much I miss them the last couple of hours since I've been gone.

Later that afternoon, while it was still pouring I brought the kids out to Far East Plaza. Took 190, alighted at Far East. We had dinner at Cahaya. Place where Herman and I used to go when we were dating. God, that was more than a decade. Food at reasonable prices that can filled our stomach during those days when Herman was in NS and I was a student back then, when Swensens and Pizza Hut were a luxury by our means. Back then there were 2 of us, yesterday it was 3 of us. Herman was at work. I reminisced those days when Herman and I were together, uninhibited. And here I was, with my kids having fun together. Wafa couldn't stop blabbering about Digimon, Pokemon while her bro egged her on. There were this 2 teenagers sitting beside us, they were amused by Wafa's blabbering. Me? I was just lucky and grateful to be here with my precious lil ones.

I asked myself this - did I feel a tinge of envy? Looking around me, people with up-to-date wardrobe, coloured hair, tatooed arm, micro-minis, midriff sleeveless tops, coloured nails and most crucial point is having to hang out and be free with buddies, gossip about boys, gals, how that b***h snapped this other gal's boy, betrayal, deceit, clubbin' here, clubbin' there, overnight here, overnight there...bla bla bla. Well fellas, short of a tatooed arm, the rest of it - HAVE BEEN THERE DONE THAT.

Let me put it simply, there's nothing in it for me anymore - not now and not later. I've grown up, moved on and sealed that chapter of my life. No longing feeling, no unfinished business. And guess what, I'm happier now than I was before. Marriage complete me especially since I found my soulmate. 2 individuals of opposites attract, clash of personality some might say, but working hard and soul to make it work. Endowed with God's precious gifts, loving hubby, cemented with kind family members, what more could I ask for. I'VE BEEN BLESSED.

After dinner and after purchase of a pair of golden shoes, we headed home. Kids were screaming for ice-cream as they have been promised that earlier. Stopped over @ BK and bought Hershey's sundae pies for them but by the look on their faces I can clearly see their disappointment. They were expecting the good old melting ice cream but wat they got instead was some cream pie in a box.

Well then, vowing to be a best mother that I can be, off we went to Swensens @ Bkt Panjang Plaza - very convenient ay. Afiq had Topless 5, Wafa had Ring-a-ding-ling. Then we walked back home.....a sweet end for my Sunday. Oh, not yet...I had a good, sound sleep with 2 angels on my right and left on my bed while it was pouring all night, hujan Rahmat . Now, that my frens, is a sweet end for my Sunday.

Monday, December 18, 2006