i am not afraid to stand alone~~if Allah is by my side

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Didn't I say so, there has been lots of happenings in my life cumer tak der time nak update kat blog ajer. Sometimes I do regret for not updating as soon as the happening happens....ntahlah, sometimes I need time to absorb and ponder about what has happened and whether they leave negative or positive impact on my mental being. Tapi frankly Alhamdulillah, I can accept things as they happen and to take it in my positive stride. Praises to God for giving me a sane mind to think, evaluate and giving me strength and faith and believe that everything happens for a cause.

I mean I'm not a Saint, not even trying to be one. I just wish to be a good citizen of Singapore, a good practicising Muslimah and for God's sake! - why is it so hard for people to accept the fact that people change and they constantly do. Isn't that a natural life process??? From baby to toddler to child to teenage to adult to growing old...tak faham faham ker, semua orang go through changes. Me not excluded in this case...I don't want to live life without a cause and I refuse to end my life without knowing my God and without Loving Him. Ya Allah, give me a chance to Know You for I've been bllinded by my own wrongdoings throughout my life.

Isn't it in order to Love Him u've got to learn about Him, Know Him, understand where He's getting at and understand why He does what He does as only He knows best.

Why? Why? Why now? Why not before? Why now baru nak jadik baik, kenaper dulu jahat macam nak mampos? Maksiat, dosa besar, dosa kecik bantai semua?!!

But hey pleaselah, if you do not know the meaning of "change"...then you're not human and been living in another planet all this while. Kan bagos kalo orang change for the better, not for worse. Wouldn't we want to share their happiness, knowledge?

Kalo tak tau, belajar! Islam menuntut manusia belajar dan berfikir secara rasional. Kalao tak tau, bertanya. Kalo tak reti reti nak belajar, jangan cepat menjatuhkan hukuman and become one-sided. Inilah dia, ada akal taknak fikir, ikut nafsu binasa. Wallahualam.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006